Friday, March 21, 2008

burning down the house


Great '80s tune. Bad Friday evening activity. Frustrated this evening by the March wind, I pulled our little charcoal grill around to the side of the house and made a windbreak by stacking two very large and heavy cardboard boxes. Titus and I went inside while the coals got hot.

About ten minutes later Ray came home from work. Very tired from a long day of cranking out stories, he was confused by the fact that he saw a cardboard box on top of the grill. Perhaps Alton Brown and the Food Network are to blame for his curious yet nonchalant reaction. Instead of doing anything about the burning box (which was also touching our house), he came inside and asked if it was supposed be like that. Later he said, "honestly, I thought it was some sort of homemade smoker you had devised after watching Alton Brown".

Well, I ran out to look at it, pulled the box off, ran back in to get a rug, and told Ray to to get some water. I did my best Smokey Bear routine, stomping out the flying bits of flaming cardboard and smothering larger chunks of the box with my rug. We burned about a two foot section of our yard, and ended up with a surprisingly small pile of ash in the drive.

We're glad it all was OK in the end. But MAN WERE WE BOTH DUMB! Ray and I honestly couldn't figure out who was dumber - me for setting cardboard boxes by an unattended burning grill adjacent to the house - or Ray for inspecting a fire and doing nothing about it before asking his wife. We concluded that alone we're both dangerous! Good thing we've got each other!

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

yes

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

a vision of our home

I spent way too much time the other night creating a rendering of our house after the exterior paint job - which is slated for a week from some Thursday. Anyway, here's a peek.
Barack gave an excellent speech today in Philedelphia. With eloquence and honesty, he addressed the entire issue of race. Peter Canellos, a staff writer for the Boston Globe, made an interesting blog post about the speech:

Analysis: Obama goes beyond generalities on race
EmailLinkComments (0) Posted by James F. Smith March 18, 2008 03:08 PM
By Peter S. Canellos, Globe Staff
PHILADELPHIA -- After a year of speaking of racial reconciliation in mostly hopeful, uplifting terms, Barack Obama today offered a fuller, deeper, and more personal testament to the nation's tormented racial history and how to begin to overcome it.
The speech had greater weight and specificity than his usual stump speech, and made fewer promises as it wrestled with the legacy of his former pastor and his inflammatory rhetoric. It suggested that an Obama administration would be a time of grappling with difficult and sometimes unpleasant issues rather than conjuring great visions.
For some voters, the speech might serve to remove the glow of optimism surrounding Obama's candidacy; but for many others, it could make him a more realistic president.
Like Mitt Romney's address on his Mormon faith last year, Obama's speech was delivered in a presidential setting -- in the very shadow of Independence Hall -- and invoked common values and historic truths; it showcased Obama more as a national teacher, a role that particularly flatters him, rather than simply an eloquent speaker.
As such, it added gravitas to a candidacy that some have found superficial; and it also served to quell the controversy-of-the-moment over Obama's long association with Rev. Jeremiah Wright, the pastor whose statements Obama condemned in no uncertain terms while offering a reasonable explanation for why he's sticking by his church and its former minister.
"I can no more disown him than I can disown the black community," said Obama. "I can no more disown him than I can disown my white grandmother."
Starting with a reference to slavery as the country's original sin, Obama aimed for a Lincolnesque tone. Lincoln is frequently cited as a model of presidential leadership and invoked as a figure of reconciliation. But few have tried to capture Lincoln's almost mournful tone of parsing painful issues, piece by piece, in reference to timeless principles -- speeches that were meant to be printed and passed around rather than delivered on the stump and posted on YouTube.
"For the African-American community, that path [to a more perfect union] means embracing the burdens of our past without becoming victims of our past," Obama said. "It means continuing to insist on a full measure of justice in every aspect of American life. But it also means binding our particular grievances – for better health care, and better schools, and better jobs - to the larger aspirations of all Americans. . .
``In the white community, the path to a more perfect union means acknowledging that what ails the African-American community does not just exist in the minds of black people; that the legacy of discrimination - and current incidents of discrimination, while less overt than in the past - are real and must be addressed.''
Obama provided a coda that tied this ongoing struggle to his politics of hope -- suggesting that the benefit of all this hard work will take the form of unified action on priorities such as health care and housing that challenge all Americans.
But this speech will be remembered as the moment that Obama got a little more down and dirty, and grounded his candidacy in serious mechanics of governance. He tried to take apart the engine and get some grease on his hands rather than just pat the hood.
This wasn't the gauzy vision of diversity draped in tapestry metaphors and colored in rainbow hues: It was a nation confronting its sins and overcoming its deeply held fears and prejudices.
"We have a choice in this country . . .," Obama said. "We can tackle race only as spectacle – as we did in the OJ trial – or in the wake of tragedy . . . We can play Reverend Wright’s sermons on every channel, every day and talk about them from now until the election, and make the only question in this campaign whether or not the American people think that I somehow believe or sympathize with his most offensive words. We can pounce on some gaffe by a Hillary supporter as evidence that she’s playing the race card . . .Or, at this moment, in this election, we can come together and say, “Not this time."
For perhaps the first time in the 2008 campaign, Obama presented a big problem as something to be confronted by average people -- the aggrieved white worker, the black person fuming about injustice -- who are part of his own political constituency. There was no corporation or lobbyist or rival politician in the picture.
The question -- for Obama, as well as his legions of hopeful supporters -- is whether those average Americans will give him the answer he wants.

Monday, March 17, 2008

eat, pray, love


I just started reading a book that has been on my radar for several months. My friend Jenn from church loaned it to me yesterday. It is just what I need right now.

One of the parts that really struck me was a scenario where she was petitioning God. She ended up crafting a petition that she signed. Her friend, who was driving them to Kansas, signed it too - verbally that is. Then the friend started adding the names of others who would sign it. Together they ended up with a list that ranged from her parents to Bill & Hillary Clinton, Mother Teresa, and various other celebrities through out history.

Lately I've been my own worst critic. I find myself rehearsing not so nice opinions about my character, intelligence, interpersonal patterns, anything really has been game of late.

So when the author was petitioning God to intervene in a painful situation on her behalf, I found my self saying "no one would sign my petition". No one would petition God on my behalf. No one would think that I deserve not to suffer. I'm not even sure I could sign it. Doesn't that suck! I'm really in a bad spot. It was all very enlightening.

I'm wondering why. I know I have a lot of things to be working out right now. I'm wondering if my hormones & bio-chemicals are out of whack with the metformin I'm taking to lower my androgens. I'm feeling the need to pray more.

I know that is a place to start.

For years prayer and scripture have been a duty. I have kind of sworn off them for a while, saying I'm not going to do them unless they mean something other than good Christian shoulds. I have a lot of history with shoulds. And I want to be free of it. God wants me free of it. Well, now it feels like scripture and prayer might be a nutritional diet for my soul once again.

I'm sure it has been before. It just has been a season for me lately. And I didn't want to deal with it by "pressing in" or "getting right with God" - I really hate that term. I think I've learned in a new way what it means to receive the love of God without striving, without deserving, without earning it. All of those Christian habits had become proofs of my spiritual maturity rather than spiritual sustenance. And therefore, they were dirty rags.

I'm not sure this is a terribly cohesive post. And it is quite raw. But who cares. The bottom line is I think I may actually get somewhere now - there are lots of layers to be ripped off. But in my core, I find I am alive. I guess this is all a good process during lent. Death to life. Amen. Let it be so.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

What is your hermeneutic disposition?

I found this little quiz tonight. I'd be interested to have you friends take it and post your result and thoughts.

hermeneutics quiz

It categorizes you as conservative, moderate of progressive in your position on scripture interpretation. (very much a nutshell definition).

Monday, March 10, 2008

proud of the men


Today Ray was awarded with a $25 gift card and "bragging rights" for an article he wrote about staph infections in local schools. The award is given out quarterly by his group of papers (that is, the six papers edited in his office) for about six different categories. His track record for earning recognition for his excellence continues. Yeah hubby!

Meanwhile, Titus is reading with impressive fluidity. He sounds out words like festival on his own and has a great reading voice with natural inflection. We're proud of him, of course.* Pretty good for 5 and 1/2 years old.

*Titus' reading milestone is especially sweet to Ray who had to overcome dyslexia as a kid and didn't read until he was 8 or 9.